I need summer school to be able to

work out
go out with friends
chill outside on patios
go to restaurants
and just feel the summer instead of work indoors and then rot at home right after while typing about in this very space. This summer will be different. Summer school, here I come.

I procrastinate....life

...on a daily basis.
It's really hard to beat. I feel like I have a mental to do list that keeps resurfacing. I keep ignoring it. It's making me sick,

This blog...

I will use this blog to make it kick ass. I will learn how to do a picture collage and I will rock the bloggy world with my awesome blog designing skills.
This blog will be used to document my journey from being a pessimist sheltered person, to an optimist open person with a magnetic aura and genuine smile. I will do anything it takes to get out of this pessimism. I am not happy and I intend to be. I will talk to strangers with confidence, become social, volunteer, voice my opinion, take care of my appearance and carry myself with confidence. I will make jokes, meet people for the sake of meeting them even if they're not my style. I will do things out of my comfort zone. I will not run away anymore.
I will sit on the busiest library floor and mingle with people. I will make eye contact with strabucks baristas, people on the elevator, people at the bus stop. I will accept coffee dates with strangers. I will not talk to anyone without making eye contact. I will not change for others or withold who I am to please them. I will act confident in job interviews to show that I am the real deal. If you lose me, it's your loss. I will participate in class, go to discussion groups, ask questions, plan study sessions. I will be social in real life and ditch the online world for social interaction. I will make an effort to be "out there" with every human being I encounter. I will not be afraid of getting hurt. Living a sheltered life is no way to live. I will give all my heart and soul in everything I do from laundry and dishes to helping someone in need. I will not take no for an answer the first time. I'll keep trying.

I will be organized and know what I'm talking about most of the time. Not knowing enough will no longer be an excuse for me to be quiet. I will stick to my opinion even if others don't agree.I will always do the best job possible. I will always genuinely smile even to people who don't smile back. I will be the girl everyone wants to know. I will be the bubbly, happy person I always wanted to be.

I will be positive with family, friends and strangers alike. This is my mission statement so hop along for the journey. Let's see where this takes me!